Well, this is my first post in nearly two months. I left off and had to take a break from HHHR back in February because I was completely overwhelmed with work in addition to some difficult personal matters that needed my attention. I was so busy and mentally drained each day that I was unable to carve out the time I needed to continue writing and recording posts. It was frustrating because I was doing a good job keeping up a regular schedule, the key to building an audience, but I simply couldn’t do that during the past two months. I felt I had to write a “Taking a Break” post to take the pressure off until I was ready to return.
I am reminded how difficult it is to get restarted after taking a break. Things had finally settled down at work and with the personal matters a few weeks ago and I’ve actually had the time to get HHHR restarted. I simply didn’t have the motivation to start writing and recording again and I seemed to find other “important” things to do like watch TV!
Once you break an established habit and routine for a period of time, it is very difficult to regain that habit and routine. Not only did I stop posting and recording at HHHR, I stopped my regular morning routine of writing and reading. I also stopped going to the gym to work out. Once my days returned to normal at work and in my life, I found it very difficult to immediately get back into the important self development habits and routines I had established. Maybe I just needed a few weeks to recover. Maybe I was just rationalizing.
On one hand, I’m disappointed in myself for not having the discipline to keep up my routines during the past two months and that it took a couple weeks before I felt I could get restarted. On the other hand, I’m thinking there is only so much a person can do and it that takes some downtime to recover from a particularly crazy stretch of time. Looking back, I’m a bit disappointed in myself but I also realize that I’m only human and have a limited capacity to be effective at all times. I needed the two to three weeks of “downtime” afterwards to recover from the extra workload at work and personal issues.
But this weekend, I felt like I could finally get back into my regular habits and routines of writing and recording to HHHR, to starting up my regular morning routine, and to start working out at the gym again. It actually feels pretty good getting back into those habits. My lack of not doing these routines and habits were constantly nagging in the back of my mind. I knew I needed to get back on track and, frankly, didn’t feel like it until just this weekend.
I’m now working on several posts hoping to get ahead and have some written and recorded a couple weeks in advance. I feel like I’ve recovered and have the capacity to restart HHHR after its two months of dormancy. I will return to the once a week routine, with Wednesday as a target day for publishing both the blog post and podcast.
While writing this post, I’ve come to the conclusion that it is important to allow yourself downtime after a particular gruelling period of time. Give yourself permission to recover and recharge. Spend time with you spouse and family. Work on your hobbies and veg out in front of the TV. This is what life is all about. Take care of yourself.